Exactly How Hell Feels

I saw this badge on someone else's blog today as I was ambling lazily through Blogger links. I think it rocks.



Kudos to whomever I stole this from. I would have given credit, but my brain is peanut butter right now...molasses...

Hell Zombie!

I knew Rob Zombie was a bad ass. Aside from being a fellow horror movie freak, he's also veggie! I heart Rob Zombie!

http://www.goveg.com/f_rob_zombie.asp

Delighted Friday In Hell

I've been so super into fabrics and yarns lately, just from cruising 'round Etsy and learning about people's spinning needles and clever animals and scraps of this and that. I find more and more girls I wish I could hang out with, or be like, or talk to. Sigh. Here's one of them. I would just love to create and stitch and glue and knit all day long.

I'm hanging out tomorrow with my little scrapbooking circle. At least that will give me a little fix of creative community. While I love my friends in Bennet to death, they have these lives that are so different from mine. They have kids, which is the main difference. So, that means that they necessarily have to be concerned primarily with family. It's understandable, but I can't really empathize as I have no children, nor want any in the future. I just can't relate. Plus, they don't just sit around and craft all day and get all giddy at the fabric store like I do. The feel of a moorhouse farm melt-in-your-hands wool yarn doesn't make them smile and sigh.

They do have just about any scrapbook supply, between them all, that your little heart could hope for. That's cool. They're fun to drink with and smart to talk to and I always want to hug my friend Roach. She must think I'm weird. Or a lesbian. I'd love to just cuddle with her though - not in a sexual way. I'd never go for any of my friends that way. Sure, they're all adorable, but it would just be too weird. They're all married too, as if that would stop me. Anyway, this just turned into a weird post...I'm creeping myself out now.

I'm working late tonight. Which means that I'm sitting here in a perfectly silent office because everyone's gone home. I'm not really doing any "work" per se, I just have to be in the office for my allotted timespan. Theoretically, if anyone were here and they asked me to do something, I'd have to do it. Make copies or something. I wish they'd let me knit at my desk!!!!! Maybe next time I stay late, I'll sneak out the needles and twiddle some yarn...on the sly...

Hell Can Be Liberating

Yesterday was not a good day. Primarily, I was still angered and upset by the situation with Mr. Assface (formerly my bf). Secondly, my uterus decided to explode. Then, I ended up eating 2 dinners because Mom invited me to her place for some soup and Dad was expecting me home, so he made some soup. The soup was great, but someone with my expanding waistline does not need to eat 2 dinners. All I really wanted to do was crawl into bed with a heat pad and crash out.

Today, however, was a decent day. I found out that I got second place in a sugar skull decorating contest that I entered. Got the consolation prize. Not too shabby. I also realized how liberated I feel, now that Mr. Assface and I are "over". I was really feeling constricted in that relationship. All the critisism and controlling behavior! Whew! Now I'm free to listen to whatever the Hell I feel like listening to. I can hole up at home and create my ass off! I spent most of my afternoon on Etsy. It's so inspiring! There are so many creative ideas floating around that website.

So, tonight after I shower, I'm going to work on the super-soft semi-challenging dragon scarf I'm knitting for Mom. Then, maybe kick back and watch a movie (to review later). I even have some ideas of how to make nifty Christmas cards and earrings. The mind is abuzz with crafty juices at the moment. I feel so much better now!

The trick is remembering to keep myself in "the zone" and not bother with these pointless relationships anymore. There's so much to do and so many things to work on, I really don't have time for any lameness. And, there are plenty of social occasions coming up with my friends to enjoy. So, I can be single and not housebound! Ha!

Proverbial Hell

"Don't fall for the man who promises the moon. Love the one who delivers it." ~ Neko proverb

Yes, the bf and I are broken up. But, since I try not to make a habit of trashing people I know online, I will refrain from typing up the long list of reasons why it didn't work out. I'm pissed off about it, sure. But, I'm not really all that sad about it. I'm just very, very angry. My only regret is not getting to see that puppy grow up. Such is life, I guess. Jesus though - will I ever have a relationship that actually works out, or am I too fucked up from past relationships to handle another one? At the moment, I'm not terribly impressed with the masculine gender.